After saying that, he turned around and left the har, getting into the car alone. He lit a cigarette, took a deep drag, trying to calm his restless heart.
However, those memories that he deliberately suppressed came flooding back like a tide, completely engulfing him.
That was their first time.
Silvia lay beneath him, her face adorned with a shy blush, her eyes filled with trust and affection.
“Zachary, would you love me forever?”
He lowered his head and kissed her forehead, his tone gentle “Of course, I will always love you, until we grow old.”
Her body trembled slightly, with a hint of nervousness and anticipation in her eyes.
Zachary’s actions were gentle and slow, as if he was afraid of hunting her.
His fingers gently caressed her skin, feeling her warmth and heartbeat.
Her breathing became rapid, and a layer of mist gradually clouded her eyes.
“Zachary, it felt sa comfortable.. she murmured softly, her voice trembling slightly.
Zachary lowered his head and kissed her lips, swallowing her voice.
His movements gradually quickened, and their breaths intertwined as if they were merging into each other’s very essence.
Her fingers tightly gripped his back, her nails deeply embedded in his skin, as if she was afraid he would suddenly disappear.
At that moment, Zachary’s heart was filled with contentment and happiness.
He knew that he could never let her go in his entire life.
Zachary’s hand clenched the steering wheel tightly, causing his knucides to turn white from the force.
His body reacted uncontrollably, with Silvia’s figure constantly appearing in his mind.
Her smile, her tears, her tenderness, her betrayal. Everything, as if all connected at this moment.
He closed his eyes, his fingers slowly sliding down his trousers, and began to masturbate.
All the emotions that he had deliberately suppressed were released at this moment,
His breathing became rapid, beads of sweat seeped out on his forehead, and finally, he released it abruptly. He stumped in the chair, as if all his strength
had been drained
The moment he was released, he knew he was finished.
He could no longer deceive himself. No matter how much he hated Silvia, no matter how hard he tried to forget her, his heart could never let go of her. She was his archenemy, the person he could never forgive in his lifetime, but she was also the person he loved the most in his life.
When it was dawn, he had already finished smolding a pack of cigarettes.
The ground was full of cigarette butts.
He made a decision and drove to the cemetery.
The heavy rain poured down, and the raindrops fell on the ground like broken beads, making a splashing sound and splashing water everywhere.
The cemetery was empty, with no one around, except for Zachary loveling in front of Elaine’s tombstone, motionless. The rain cascaded down his hair, cheeks, and collar, soaking his entire body, but he seemed completely unaware.
His gaze was fixed firmly on the photo of Elaine on the tombstone, her kind and gentle face, which now weighed heavily on him. His fist clenched tightly, his nails digging deep into his palin, blood mixed with rainwater, dripping onto the ground.
“Mom…” Zachary’s voice was hoarse and low, as if it was squeezed out from deep within his throat, “I’m sorry.”
His voice was drowned by the sound of rain, as if it had never existed.
The image of Silvia kept echoing in his mind, those memories were like a knife, repeatedly carving into his heart, making him hurt so much that he could hardly breathe
He knew that it was shameful for him to keep thinking about Silvia repeatedly.
