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“Because… Goddess, there is no easy way to say this, but… Emily, you are carrying another wolf’s pup. In our world it is unacceptable, so most likely Nick is going to… reject you.”
The words played in my mind like a broken record, hitting the most painful spot in my heart. Every second that passed felt like a knife tearing my heart apart. Did I really think I deserved happiness? How could I allow myself that tiny spark of hope that lit up in me when doc Evans said Nick was my mate? Stupid, stupid Emily, when will you drill it in that tiny brain of yours, that you don’t get to have a happy ending? The most important thing for you should be your baby girls happiness, not yours. There is always something that’s going to be in the way of it, I know that now, I’ve learned my lesson now. What doc Evans saw in my eyes was resignation. I gave up. I saw a lone tear that rolled down his wrinkly cheek and I gently swiped it away.
“It’s ok doc, no need to cry.” I said softly.
“I’m so sorry, my child…” With that he hugged me tightly, hoping to give the support I needed. Although he couldn’t know that no amount of it would be enough for me. And I felt so numb, that it was me giving him some of my strength, not the other way. He seemed to be more upset with my
situation then me.
“C’mon, old man. Don’t go all mushy on me now.” I teased him with a tight smile on my face.
“You are so strong, sweetheart.”
“Maybe I am, maybe I’m not. Life goes on, doc, we have bigger problems that the big bad wolf rejecting me. I’m due very soon and we’ve got a stalker on our hands, so let’s concentrate on that,
ok?”
He took a deep breath, then patted my leg and stood up. He turned to leave, but I stopped him before he managed to do just that.
“Hey, doc!”
“Yeah?” He turned to me again, concern still visible on his face, but the tears were thankfully gone. I wouldn’t want anyone crying over my problems. And also, I wouldn’t allow myself to cry over it as well. I’ll be strong. I’ll get through it. I can do it. No other choice, for my baby girl.
“Do you think I could stay with you for a couple of days, if you don’t mind?”
“Sure thing, sweetheart. Let’s go grab some of your things and then we can be on our way.”
He helped me to get up from the couch, and hand in hand we went to my room. I packed in my old duffel bag some of my things and took a long look around the room. I had a feeling, that everything
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was about to change, but at the same time it was still all the same madhouse. Here was I, holding the same
duffel bag that had my humble possessions that day when I left home, and I’m doing it again. This place has become my home, but I do have to leave, maybe not as far as I planned before Shirley’s outburst, but away from the place where I found out that I do not deserve happiness. With one last glance I turned to doc, he took my bag and handed me my cane. Slowly we went in the direction of the front door.
On our way we had to stop by the kitchen. Shirley and Lena were standing by the stove, hugging each other, and all the men were seated around the kitchen table. The twins starring at the table surface, Jonathan and Nick at me. Both of their gazes were intense, the only difference was that Jonathan’s was full of sadness, I guess for both of us. But Nick’s gaze broke my heart once again. It was full of disappointment and resentment. His eyes were so beautiful, the color was so deep and warm, but the air about him was cold as snow. But still I took a second to admire him. He was built same as Jonathan, had long dark brown hair put in a high man bun, his nose was straight, lips full, cheekbones high, jaw strong and well defined, a slight beard, as if he forgot to shave for a couple of days in a row. But what got me out of my stupor was his hands – they were balled in tight fists. His nostrils flaring, a low growl broke free from his throat and Jonathan placed a strong arm on his shoulder, keeping him still.
