Chapter 15
Over the past few years, my bipolar disorder had gotten worse.
The people around me had shown their true colors, and it was hard to guard against them.
The only person I could trust was Pandora.
I was scared that even she’d leave me, abandon me.
The more I thought about it, the more I started having hallucinations.
Sometimes in the middle of the night, I woke up and saw her come in, stab a knife into my chest.
Then everything disappeared when I blinked.
My mental state kept getting weaker.
Until Marshall’s birthday, I saw him drive up to my house.
Pandora went out happily, and they hugged and kissed by his car.
I couldn’t accept it.
After what happened with my parents, everyone said the Bourn family was going down.
Marshall’s mom didn’t want him to hang out with Pandora anymore.
As a mama’s boy, Marshall refused to help Pandora because of what his mom said.
He was such a wimp, not someone she could rely on.
Seeing them kiss made me so mad.
I got in my car and followed him to the Long family.
Then I saw Pandora get out of the car and hand Marshall an envelope.
She told him, “With this, my bro’s big deal should go to your dad.
Then your family can expand your business and negotiate with my bro to let you marry me.”
I was almost losing it, totally out of it when I got home.
That night, a bank card popped up in Pandora’s bag by chance.
Actually, not long after that, I started thinking maybe all of it–Pandora kissing Marshall, giving him the envelope–was just a hallucination.
And that bank card? Just another one of Marshall’s Dad’s tricks to drive us apart.
Deep down, I’d always thought Pandora wouldn’t do something like that.
Seventeen years of being siblings, I knew what kind of person she was.
I just… I didn’t dare to think deeper.
I knew, once the slap was thrown, it couldn’t be taken back.
I just… I didn’t dare to face it.
Like how I saw Pandora bleeding from the nose so much, but when Marshall said she just had a fever, I tried to cover my eyes and believe it.
I just knew I couldn’t face some consequences, and I couldn’t bear.
In this world, the only thing I had left was a sister.
The day Pandora passed away, she was sad because Elaine came to the airport to accompany me abroad.
She thought I really treated Elaine as a sister.
But she didn’t know I just hoped to see her angry, furious, questioning me through Elaine.
i felt her emotions were too calm recently, calm to the point of being scary.
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That calmness made me uneasy, scared.
Even that night when I slapped her face, she didn’t react much.
I wanted to see her like when she was little, hugging my arm and saying, “Brother is mine.”
But she didn’t.
No anger, no questioning, nothing.
That day in the hospital, she suddenly sent me a message, asking me to make her some soup.
Later in the mall, she told me the same.
I told her, “Make it yourself. If you can’t, learn.”
What I really wanted to say was, “If you want soup, go home and make it.
“If you can’t, come home and learn from me. If you can’t learn, I can make it for you, too.”
If only she would come home, as long as she would come home.
That night, I had the nanny stop her, not letting her go to the dance studio that Mom had left her.
I just hoped, with nowhere to go, she would come back.
But she stayed outside anyway.
Marshall was always by her side.
At the hospital, at the mall.
That was fine, but he also listened to his mom and got a new girlfriend.
So, what was with him being with Pandora on one hand?
I was so furious that I used the family photo as an excuse to get Pandora to the restaurant.
I wanted her to see Marshall’s incompetence.
She was indeed heartbroken and ran out.
I chased after her and saw her covered in blood from head to toe.
At that moment, a wave of shock and fear engulfed me.
After sending her to the hospital, I actually didn’t go to be with Elaine that day.
Marshall told me Pandora had a fever and some sudden blood clotting disorder.
Deep down, I knew it wasn’t that simple, yet I was too scared to dig deeper.
I just sat outside the ward, lost and afraid to face Pandora.
Marshall said I went to Elaine, but really, he was just mad I couldn’t tell Pandora was sick and felt she deserved better, so he said those things on purpose.
He wanted Pandora to hate me, to never think of me again.
He thought I wasn’t worthy.
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