Book1 Chapter10
Sunday
A nervous feeling bubbles in my stomach at the thought of actually seeing him again. Sitting once again in my car, I give myself a stern talking to. My parents will be there; my sisters will be there. I will not embarrass the people I love again. It was so much easier out of sight, out of mind.
Opening the car door, I end up closing it again. Everytime I open it, all I can smell is him. It’s a drowning feeling, and I am unable to catch my breath. My eyes fill with water. It’s such a struggle not to breakdown.
Why me? Why can’t I just feel numb to him? Why does he affect me so much? How dol not affect him? How can he fight this so easily?l pound on the steering wheel. I feel as if someone is pushing on my chest. The pressure gets heavier and heavier until I really start to feel lightheaded.
With my head down,I just sit there, unable to really find the motivation to move. Knuckles tapping on the window draw my eyes up. Dallas is looking at me, our eyes meet, and he doesn’t look away. Opening the door for me to get out, he still
holds my gaze.
“I just need a minute, Dallas.” I try to close the door again, and he stops me from doing that.
“I’ve been watching you for the last hour in your car, talking to yourself. I think you were even answering back.” He opens
the door wider for me to get out.
“I’m sorry, this is so silly.” I still can’t get out of the car.
“I don’t think it is. I think it’s really sad for you. I think that you are the strongest person I know.” His hand reaches for
mine, the one that is still clenching the steering wheel.
“I don’t feel strong,” I whisper, barely audible, even to my ears.
“You are.” He lets me sit a moment more before he pulls me out.
“All right, I’m ready. I have some stuff for the pack in the trunk. Can you help me carry it in?” I step away from him.
“Sure.” Opening the trunk of the car, I have boxes of veggies from the garden. All fresh without the smell of pesticides,
sun-ripened…so healthy.
Carrying the boxes of produce in front of me, I try to have the cardboard act as a shield from his stare. It doesn’t work; I feel it instantly as soon as Dallas and I round the corner of the house into the backyard. I don’t even have to look to see
where he’s at. My body just knows. My soul is trying to touch his. It’s as if it’s leaning out a window with its arms out,
fingertips stretched completely straight, trying to get closer to him.
I turn my body away from his, and my bare arm brushes against the doctor’s skin. We both look down at the spot where our flesh touched, aware of the contact we just made.
“Sorry about that,” I say, taking a step away from him.
“No, that’s okay. Let’s put these down and maybe get us both a drink?” His voice is gentle, yet at the same time he gives
me direction on what to do
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“Good idea.” My back bums with his eyes against my skin.
I put them on a table with a sign that says please take. The wolves should love this, especially the ones who don’t have a garden. Nothing like fresh veggies.
The wind lifts the hem of my skirt slightly, exposing my bare thighs. I can see Dallas out of the corner of my eyes, looking
at me. He doesn’t linger for too long.
“I brought some beer. Would you like one?” He’s going to a cooler, opening it up.
“Are you sure? If you have enough,I would like one.”
“I have more than enough for you.” He hands the open bottle to me, and I take the first drink. The liquid is cold against my
throat.
“Thanks.” With my back to my mate, I take in the gathering. The whole pack is out enjoying themselves, laughing and carrying on, the adults playing beanbag toss, lawn darts. There is a game of volleyball to the side in a pit of sand that
replaced grass; it looks very official.
“Are you hungry? Do you want something to eat?” Now, this is extremely embarrassing.
“I can’t eat until everyone else does. I can’t even sit with the pack.” I look at a solitary table slightly away from the main
group…my place.
“What are you talking about?” That’s the loudest I have ever heard his voice go.
“When I was punished,I had to eat last, and I couldn’t eat with the pack anymore. I’m still last.”
“Come with me, now.” He walks us toward the Alpha and Luna while I start to backpedal. He’s muttering something under
his breath that I can’t make out.
“Rya, how are you?” Luna Catherine and the Alpha call out. My head instantly goes down, my breath coming out a little
harsher.
“Good, thank you for asking.” I just give them the generic line everyone gets.
“How’s she doing at the clinic?” the Alpha asks Dr. Valentine.
“She’s fitting in really well with the team. She’s an extremely wonderful asset to the pack,and we are all very lucky to have someone like her.” The gentle pressure of fingertips touch my lower back; this is the first time I have ever been touched there by a male. I cringe slightly. He withdraws his hand, letting it rest at his side. Warm molten lava slowly slides down from the tip of my head, caressing my shoulders; heat burns so pleasurably into my hips that I have to stifle a moan. My ass heats up, the exposed skin of my thighs tingling with his stare. I have to catch myself; my head wants to rollback, and
my legs become liquid jelly.
“Good, glad to hear that.” I don’t even look at the Alpha when he’s talking, preferring to just keep silent. It’s just better not
to talk. I wonder if my cheeks are flushed.
