Chapter 11
-APOLLO-
The music is blasting as I take yet another drink. I have lost count of the number of beers I’ve chugged since the night started
I was trying to drown my need for Lana with every drink.
I had to find another woman tonight to get my mind off her. I’ve been doing it since I found our that she was my mate. I was searching for anyone to help me forget about her. However, so far, no one could do the trick. The more I tried to drown my fucking needs, the more I wanted Lana.
These feelings were all wrong, I was too much to deal with right now.
1 have fought against my feelings for her ever since the first day I saw her. My life came with too much luggage. I never wanted to drag her into it with me. I will didn’t want to do that to her. However, it was getting harder to ignore her.
“Alpha” My Beta roars above the music as he throws me another drink. “Drink up!”
A few of my pack members were here tonight and having a much–deserved good time. After defeating the white wolves clan and getting some of their best fighters on our side, things were better than ever for my pack
We were the strongest pack in this territory and possibly stronger than a few other territories. However, I wouldn’t know for sure since I’ve never been in a battle with all of them.
I never started a war unless my territory was threatened. The white wolves thought that they were better than us, but their leader made the mistake of actually believing those false statements. His pack suffered because of his poor choices. At least now, some of his members were in a better pack. We actually took care of our members and didn’t make foolish decisions based on pride.
“Scored any more girls for the night?” He asks with a grin
Jake was constantly happy at these parties as long as girls were around. I always let him take bome as many as he pleased. He was good at his job and deserved to be rewarded in whatever way he pleased. The women were more than happy to please him as long as it meant I acknowledged them
I’ve seen a couple.” I tell him. “But I’m too tired tonight. Maybe in a few hours, I will take one home.
I wasn’t tired. It was a lie. I didn’t feel like fucking any of these women knowing that Lana was now aware that I was her mate. It was much easier back when she didn’t know the entire truth.
“Only one?” he grins. “We know one is never enough for you. One is the low of a number. Be honest. How many do you plan on leaving with once you stop feeling tired”
was never enough because none of them was the woman I desired. And since I could never have her. I had to settle for whichever woman threw herself my way.
“Yeah, I’m good tonight, I answer him. “You can have them all. Go crazy?
“What about me?” Adrian aks. “All these women always want the great Alpha Apollo Moon. When will they desire the rest of ust
1 chuckle. “Maybe when you stop whining so much. Women like to feel protected, if you stop acting like a child, you will attract a few?
Adrian was the group’s researcher. He kept us up to date on all threats. He knew all of the nearby packs, their strengths and weaknesses just like Jike, he was good at his job,
Lach of my pack members has their good qualities and were chosen because of their strong points. Of course, there were still weaknesses in each of them but I chose to ignore the good outweighed the bad.
“Something seems to be bothering you Lately, Jake says, noticing my dull mood. “By now, you would be surrounded by at least live women. Two in your arms, two on both legs, and our belund you, kissing on your neck ”
It was the truth. I always had women around me, even though they never got a certain woman on of my head. I was not ready to let my pack know about my mate. This secret was one I could never afford to get out
“Tuave a loa on my mind lately, I admit
Jake frowns. “Is it that thing with your mother agane” he asks me. “Is she using the divorce to guilt trip you like she always does?”
Iglare at him, which immediately y stops that conversation.
Whale I knew my mother was overthelming at times, I didn’t like anyone disrespecting her jake knew this much because he had been around me the most. As my Beta, we spend much time together trying to keep the pack in order.
I get it, “he says, putting a finger over his ninh. “I won’t comment in your mother again”
Chapter II
“What do you think about that redhead?” Adrian asks us, trying to lighten the mood and switch the direction of our earlier conversation. “I think she might be good in bed.”
Jake grins, “Let’s see who can win her over”
Adrian sight. “Why bother? Her interest will only be on our Alpha the second we go over there. I don’t know why Leven bother trying
“Once he leaves, you will have the opportunity,” Jake says as he pats him on the back.
I didn’t plan on leaving anytime soon. I needed to keep myself distracted for as lon home to keep my eyes on Lana
s possible. The second I had nothing to do, I would riph
Fuck
Even her name brought unwanted feelings my way
I was letting her get into my head. Damn it. There must be something I could do to get over these insane feelings.
“What do you think about the blond!” Jake asks as they continue to look for their next target.
Ignore them.
nen interested me
None of these warnen
I had to find a way to get over Lana and quickly. I could not allow her to take over my mind; I should be fucking stronger than this. All my life, I have been able to put certain feelings behind me.
So then, why was ignoring Lann so fucking hard for me? Why was she the only person to have such a substantial impact on my life? She may she meant nothing to me based on how I’ve treated her the past few years, but she knew nothing about my real feelings.
No one knew anything about my true feelings for her. I’ve done a good job at hiding it all this time, even though it’s been fucking hard for me.
“Tell me you see what I’m seeing.” Adrian says, his tongue practically out of his mouth.
“She’s perfect.” Jake says, “I think we have our winner for the night.”
Wharver had their attention seemed to have both men excited next to me.
They were acting as though they’d never seen a woman before
“Something is seriously wrong with the both of you,” I say in a dry tone.
Adrian sports. “You can speak that way because you never have any trouble getting lid. You are lucky that you have that aura to drive women
I take another gulp of the drink in my hand. Fai unsure what the ladies saw in me or why they threw themselves my way
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