Chapter 10%
“I don’t even have the right to say sorry to you now.“}
He said he had gone to see the scientists and signed a life–threatening agreement. This time, the content of the bet was even crazier. As long as the scientists agreed to let him enter the instrument to search through the past, he was willing to give up his life in the end, even if it meant becoming a living experimental subject.”
I heard about this from Cassian.}
He even showed me the video.}
Elias sat inside the instrument without hesitation and immediately turned on the switch.
But the extreme overload caused him to vomit blood and his eyes turned blood red.}
This time, he did not hesitate but clenched his teeth and endured it.
The alarms blared continuously.
The scientist, terrified that someone would die, tried to persuade him. “Are you insane? If you keep going like this, you’ll die! Stop it right now!“}
But he refused.
He said this was the only way he could atone for his sins. “I want my memory back… I want to remember.“}
Overload after overload.
He vomited blood again and again.
But
each time, he stood back up.
Over and over again.
By the time Clarissa rushed over, he was already on the verge of death. She cried bitterly, “Why are you torturing yourself like this? Don’t you realize this is more painful than killing me?“>
“I was the one who tampered with the data, but you still fell in love with me. Why are you trying so hard to get your memories back?” “Even if you could go back in time, could you really make her fall in love with you again?“}
That final question hit him so hard that his expression froze. His eyes were filled with unbearable pain before he let out a scream and collapsed, unconscious.
The scientists rushed him to the hospital and the doctor said that due to multiple exposures to the instrument, his internal organs had been severely damaged and were rapidly failing. Because of this, he might not survive more than half a year.
But he responded with a calm face, “That’s perfect. Then I’ll only have to endure the pain of losing her for half a year.“}
Clarissa wept bitterly, begging him not to give up, even threatening to end her own life.
However, it was all in vain.
He said numbly, “Do you think your tears still mean anything to me now?“}
“Go away. I don’t want to see you again.”
“But…”
“Go away, go away!“}
He screamed in despair and as he shouted, he broke down into bitter sobs once more.
He clutched the scientist’s hand, begging to be given another chance. “I think I remember something. Please, just let me try one more time.“{
“I want to remember. I really want to remember everything about her.”
Now, he stood in front of me, telling me that he had remembered our past.
How we took a walk under the stars together.}
How he woke me in the middle of the night just to take me to see the sea.
And when the sun rose, he proposed to me and said proudly, “This makes me the first person in the world to propose.”
***
There was so much more.
“Trust me, I can remember it.”
He reached out desperately, trying to hold my hand, but when he saw the ring on my finger, he froze.§
I said, “You remembered… but I’m already married.“”
“This time, you missed me.“}
“Just like I missed you.”
Perhaps I was wrong from the very beginning. Perhaps I should not have expected too much. Time kept moving forward. So why was I still stuck in the past??
“Don’t… don’t do this!“!
Choking back his tears, he said, “I’ll remember. I’ll remember everything soon. I’m still the same Elias Hawke who loved you back then.“> Oh, really??
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At this point, did he still believe that as long as he remembered the past, he would somehow be the same person again? “What about everything you did to me?“%
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